hurt

i know it's hurt. but what can i do when my heart that hurt??

it's very different than wound on skin....that i can get salve or medicine for it.

but when something inside me that hurt. i dont have cure for it, it's not leave even i take aspirin.

just time will cure and heal it.

ignore

today someone is having birthday, i sent message early to say happy birthday.. about 5.30am.

but no reply,

and a moment ago , i saw him online, i sent message again, and no reply . then he off soon, 

...i'm confused. i am ignored .. :(

little pilot

It's been a while, about a month ago , last time i post words here.

after some searching, and looking...

i'm feeling likes a pilot..

small , young, and....curious pilot. who like to try new things, 

already fly everywhere close aroung, but never fall down before.

so, i decided to fly somewhere far , far away from home and oversea.

i dont say things to my family that i want to go far,

i take off my small plane, wow... i was wonder my small plane that made from plastic will survive in wild sky.

then, i 'm 10000ft on the sky, and almost leave my country...

now i face the ocean. my panel show that it's ok, wind ok, tail ok, pressure good, 

but... omg, i forgot about my gasoline. i dont carry reserve gallons that full of gasoline,

.......

50% before i reach my destiny, but i dont have fuel left, 

i call to my radio..."mayday mayday mayday....."

i try to take look if there's island or somewhere i can land my plane...i saw nothing.

just big and wide blue sea.... 

i feels tears in the corner of my eyes. but my lips are smiling...