i really dont know what should i do,
it's make me worrying.
thing i could do at this moment. 
just wait for you.

hugs and kisses

Nobody can understand me, even you.
because you are not going to try to understand me

By James -- 431257

Who am I?
Can't you see?
You are here
You're part of me.

We're just the same
You and I
Just looking at the world
With different eyes.

Yet so different
You and me.
Surrounding forces
Caused us to be...

Like Potter's Clay
In a mold.
Changing daily,
'Til we're old.

Look at me
With your eye...
Can't you see
Who am I?

James, 431257

The Meaning Of Life -- Doel Sumbang

Do not say no
When you fall in love
Just frankly
why should lie

[reff]

Love's gift
so blessed
because we are miserable
if you do not have love

obstacles confronting would come
trials must come heavy
but believe that love will make you
understand the meaning of life

let's babe, let's waters
the love that grows within
let's babe, let's waters
in order to blossom throughout the day

You stand by Me

I never had no one
I could count on
I've been let down so many times
I was tired of hurtin'
So tired of searchin'
'Til you walked into my life
It was a feelin'
I'd never known
And for the first time
I didn't feel alone

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend, oh yeah

You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You're right there to save me
You make me see how much I have
And I still tremble
When we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love

By Anonymous

-Y-

only You,
person that i always thinking in my mind..
when i couldnt chat/see you for somedays, it make me sick.
i love to talk with you, love everythings about you. even i never heard your voice for real.
but i believe, someday you'd be true for me, soon or later.
it's only You and I
kind of relationship that hard for other to understand.
we need to make it survive, and show that we're love each other.
i dont need other person,
only YOU, because i want YOU
YOU got me

I'm Sorry

this morning, was very complicated, confused, and....... bad thing happened
i didnt mean to hurt your feeling by said that you're just my friend.
i want you understand with my condition that cant next to you because i'm far away and apart from you.
i know you like with me,and i'm feeling the same too. i like you.
you're a bear..you're my type..and i like you..i cant hide my feel
please dont angry/upset with me....it's too soon to say that i love you.
we started it as friendship, ok? and see what will happen then.
and i'll have something to do ..work, so i couldnt spend much time as usual in front of pc.
forgive me....i wont hurt you.


hugs and kisses

Aku - Part 1

Hari yang panas........*hufh*
Saatnya musim kemarau,
tapi masih ada hujan untuk mendinginkan panasnya bulan ini.
di belahan bumi utara, menjelang musim panas.
yang di selatan, siap-siap buat musim dingin.

Untuk aku...
Pasrah, jika orang tua sudah marah,
Untuk aku...
Persiapan buat melamar kerjaan,
Untuk aku...
Pokoknya yang terbaik bagi diriku,

Dompet, FlashDisk, & Handphone,
jadi satu tempat..desakan ma keyboard&mouse.
Buat kabel, digulung satu tempat di belakang monitor (tetep aja berantakan)
Rak sepatu, tepat di sebelah kanan..
(kadang gak tahan bau & nyamuk *pewh* )
sebelah kiri...Bed Sweet Bed,
untuk tidur siang + tidur malam.

Richard Marx - Right Here Waiting

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you 

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Memory of High School

i'm really happy when i know that i'm graduated from High School,
everybody is very happy and proud that afternoon,
nothing to thought.....
just happy , happy and happy.
for me, it just way for next life.
hard to say goodbye, but we're proud each other that we're graduated.
no tears....but i'm crying because it's really difficult to loose you.
everyday....each moment that we have done....and all of our memory when we're in class.
happy, sad, laugh, cry, ....we felt its together.
no doubt...you are the best friend for me,
let it would be a good memory in every heart of you.
because you, friends....glad i could be with you
3 years together.....and i couldnt forget it.
best regards,,,,and thank you so much.

yours faithfuly, as person that you know as..
BBX

Why??

many peoples hurt me,
they offered friendship for me, but they're betrayed.
when??
when i could find someone that could cure my heart?
i cant cry anymore..my tears have been dried.
why do you hurt me?

If Teddy Bears Ruled The World

If teddy bears ruled the world,
Oh my, what a wonderful place.
Everyone would be happy.
There would be a smile on every face.

We would picnic every Sunday
At our favorite old oak tree.
We would sing and dance and prance about,
Just playing joyfully.

We would all be nice to each other
And always lend a hand.
Ready with a bear hug,
We would always understand.

We would all be happy when something nice
Happened for one of our friends
And our friendships would last forever.
Nothing would cause them to end.

We would be kind to everyone,
Not just those in our own home,
But to everyone throughout our world,
Wherever we may roam.

Yes, if teddy bears ruled the world,
What a wonderful life this would be.
Our hearts would always be happy
As we danced by the old oak tree.

Janis Miner
Copyright 1997

Still Loving You by Scorpions

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday.
I will be there, I will be there.

Fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, only love
Can break down the walls someday.
I will be there, I will be there.

If we'd go again
All the way from the start,
I would try to change
The things that killed our love.

Dream

I've burned my eyes on the summer time skies, along a country mile.
I've drown my pain in the winter rain, and the sweetness of a smile.
I've been possessed...or maybe just blessed... by the dreams i can't define.
Can't you see there's a light in me, and i've got to let it shine.
I've been thru the fire, and down-to-the-wire, just trying to make my way.
I've soared as high as the wild birds fly, but i still came down the same.
And i may feel, just a little more real, but i'm still more lost than found.
And when night-time comes, i still need someone, to wrap my love around.

by someone

Never

NEVER say I love you, if you don't really care
NEVER talk of feelings, when they aren't really there
NEVER hold my hand, if you mean to break my heart
NEVER say forever, if you ever plan to part
NEVER look in to my eyes, if you are telling me a lie
NEVER say hello, if you think you will say good-bye
NEVER say that I'm THE one, if you dream of more then me
NEVER Lock up my heart, if you don't have the key

by someone

Favorite Quotes

"And you, my father, there on the sad height , curse bless me now with your fierce tears, i pray. Do not go gentle into that good night. Rage, rage against the dying of the light" (Dylan Thomas)

"I will wear my heart upon my sleeve for daws to peck at" (Shakespeare)

"If you fight, you can lose. If you didn't fight, you have lost already" (Bertolt Brecht)


"ONE LIFE,LIVE IT"

"Although we are thousands of miles apart, it is like we are always together. We both know that we will be together always." (Gigi Carnevali)

"You are my special one and I want to hold you for ever" (HBGPABEAR)

I DARE YOU

I dare you

to look into my eyes and see my soul
to seek more than a few moments of orgasmic bliss
to find out who I am and who you are
and whether you and I can be we

I dare you

to touch my heart so that I can touch yours
to stroke my soul and feel the friction in my mind
to tap the energy that moves you and me
and lay a hand on the possibility that you and I could be we

I dare you

to smell the nape of my spirit and mix our aromas
to get a whiff of what makes me wake each morning
to sniff our live's purposes
and sense if you and I could be a bouquet of we

I dare you

to taste the experiences that have made me
to swallow my tears of joy and pain
to let me savor the uniqueness of you
and sample with me the possibility that you and I could be we

I dare you

to listen the my song of life
to heed my cries of ache and ecstasy
let me hear the melody of you
and perceive the possibility that you and I could be a harmonious we

I dare you to

Sense whether you and I could be we

by someone

Aku Bisa!!!

Saat semua terjaga, ku bertahan dari dinginnya dunia...
menggapai asa, yang telah Tuhan berikan untuk aku dapatkan.
bahwa mimpi itu indah, tapi tak mungkin aku hidup dalam mimpi.

untuk itulah,....
aku mencoba, kubuka mata, bekerja, mewujudkan mimpi dalam nyata.
meski aku adalah kecil, tapi aku besar.
ku besarkan hatiku, dan ku lapangkan dadaku...agar aku hidup dalam kebebasan.

bebas ...dan lepas...
untuk merubah dunia dan
mimpi untuk menjadi nyata,
aku bisa!!!!

Best Friend

So many thanks for my best friend Luigi...or i should call him, Gigi
i always remember words that you're said in your site,

"Although we are thousands of miles apart, it is like we are always together.  We both know that we will be together always."

 

that's what i'm feeling with my bf that lived far away from me, really.

thousands hugs and kisses for you Gigi.