the boy with the cat

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This=LOVE -- The Script

It’s in the eyes of the children
As they leave for the very first time
And it’s in the heart of the soldier
As he takes a bullet on the front line
It’s in the face of a mother
As she takes the force of a blow
And its in the hands of the father yeah
As he works his fingers to the bone yeah

I’m standing under a white flag oh
Can you see me oh, can you see me oh
I’m standing for everything we have oh
Can you hear me oh, can you hear me

This is why we do it this is worth the pain
This is why we bow down and get back up again
This is where the heart lies, this is from above
Love is this, this is love

Love is why we do it love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down, get back up again
Love is where the heart lies love is from above
Love is this, this is love

This is love (x3)

It’s in the soul of a city
What it does after it crumbles and burns
And it’s in the blood of a hero
To know where he goes he may never return yeah

I’m standing under a white flag oh
Can you see me oh, can you see me oooh
I’m standing for everything we have oh
Can you hear me oh, can you hear me

This is why we do it this is worth the pain
This is why we bow down, get back up again
This is where the heart lies this is from above
Love is this, this is love
Love is why we do it love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down, get back up again
Love is where the heart lies love is from above
Love is this, this is love

This is love, this is love ..

Bridge (rap)
If you could be anywhere that you wanted to be
With anyone that you wanted to be with
Do anything that you wanted to do
What would it be and who would it be with you
Time flies but you’re the pilot
It moves real fast but you’re the driver
You may crash and burn sometimes

This is why we do it this is worth the pain
This is where we bow down get back up again
This is where the heart lies this is from above
Love is this, this is love
Love is why we do it, love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down get back up again
Love is where the heart lies love is from above
Love is this, this is love

(This is love!)

another good/bad day....

i just stay quiet... maybe my dreams will ground. or because i dreams too high.
i know there was tears in corner of my eyes.and i try to be brave face this world alone

hurt

i know it's hurt. but what can i do when my heart that hurt??

it's very different than wound on skin....that i can get salve or medicine for it.

but when something inside me that hurt. i dont have cure for it, it's not leave even i take aspirin.

just time will cure and heal it.

ignore

today someone is having birthday, i sent message early to say happy birthday.. about 5.30am.

but no reply,

and a moment ago , i saw him online, i sent message again, and no reply . then he off soon, 

...i'm confused. i am ignored .. :(

little pilot

It's been a while, about a month ago , last time i post words here.

after some searching, and looking...

i'm feeling likes a pilot..

small , young, and....curious pilot. who like to try new things, 

already fly everywhere close aroung, but never fall down before.

so, i decided to fly somewhere far , far away from home and oversea.

i dont say things to my family that i want to go far,

i take off my small plane, wow... i was wonder my small plane that made from plastic will survive in wild sky.

then, i 'm 10000ft on the sky, and almost leave my country...

now i face the ocean. my panel show that it's ok, wind ok, tail ok, pressure good, 

but... omg, i forgot about my gasoline. i dont carry reserve gallons that full of gasoline,

.......

50% before i reach my destiny, but i dont have fuel left, 

i call to my radio..."mayday mayday mayday....."

i try to take look if there's island or somewhere i can land my plane...i saw nothing.

just big and wide blue sea.... 

i feels tears in the corner of my eyes. but my lips are smiling...

i dont have things to say at this moment.

sorry

messed

i'm so messed up , 

but i told that i have great weekend 2 days ago.. hehehe

upset

i was very get down yesterday,

i know i upset everyone that i know in my life.

i'm such a useless guy . cant do anything that could help them.

i know i was unwanted by my parent.

i just another surprise child in a poor family..

but God have reason why i should born in this world.

thanks God. i know i'm not obedient boy, 

but i 'll be good person.

not bad

it's not bad week . 

just feel  not comfortable with my condition right now..

and am lonely... sigh.

anyway. i try to be happy and keep smile. :)

new number

what today is it? when last time i post something on my blog....

ugh, i almost forget. lol

May Day was on Sunday, and my guess right, lot ppl get down the road and ...............(fyi: you know what i mean)

they strived for their rights. and i do agree. most law only on company side.

have rain every evening for 3-4days... made me mad with connection . then finally i change my sim card. hehe

now, i have new number, and thanks for wonderful gprs when i use with mobile

Happy May Day

Happy May Day everybody!!!

after one week

so...

i have been quiet for a week. had event last sunday, 

and, what should i tell you right now.

as you know my life had been changed about 3-4months already

i have to grow as mature, but my mind still likes a child

i like cartoon, kidding. but i never understand myself when i 've mad or i take something very serious.

i was bit proud that my event i lead was success. we know we havent much profit in money/cash. 

but we made people happy, feels together, and enjoy its.

i was worrying at one day before the event. i think my brain will blow and messed up.

i dont have to worry about it now. it's already end.

now, for another weekend, i will think for vacation or trip somewhere closer with my buddies. 

4-6weeks we dont get out to get fun .

we plans to go to village, but still dont know when.

and for romance thing. 

i have no idea about it. likes impossible for me, but i do have a chance.

i just have to keep it , 

plant good seed, water and give it nutrition. and hope the love will grow soon. hehe :D

happy easter day and have good weekend everybody

Peanut

i was feeling "peanut" yesterday...

LIKES A NUT

i cant take this feels anymore...ugh

it's raining this evening. and i'm feeling in a mess. UGH~~~~~
i dont know why my father isnt understand me, 
i'm the youngest  , but i feels there's any love left from my father to me.
i'm 18yrs, and yes i need attention from my father and he should lead me to the right things
but this time i do all by myself. rarely talk with him.
and try to get experience in this life. 
i know i'm not likes ordinary boy in orientation. but i'm same in anyway.

sickness

i'm not feeling well today,
the most things i feel for some week, is my stomach, left side.
i dont know it's my side or my kidney.

i feels it really hurt when i hold my pee. and sometimes bit hurt when i hungry. seems complicated problem for me.
and this morning. when i woke up , my throat is sore, likes dry.
hurt and strange when i swallow food/ water.
i might need rest, because i havent off from work for 5 days.
and there's much things i 've to do beside work.
i should prepare things before event next sunday.
oh. God. give me healthy. please.

miss you

i dont know mean of my dream this afternoon. 
but,,,i was bit scared and missed someone, my grandpa.
after went to red-cross for ensure something about event that i'm going to do next week.
i took a nap, 
i dream that my aunt was looking for something , i try to help .
suddenly, i can see clearly on my dream, i saw my grandpa. 
he said what can he do to help .


then i try to wake up, my body was shiver.. 
i hope he's good in other place to live. hugs grandpa

ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

yesterday was bad, i lost $3 of cell phone bill,
i clicked bad things when i browse with my phone browser for download game.
and i felt very bad.. :( :((
sad and angry. i was too stupid about it.
then i lost something from my draft box,
kinda poem that i made when i go home 2 days ago,
i edited it, then save it, but dont know why it 's not in my draft box when i check later.
i tried to check my saved box, but nothing,
i was going to post that here.
sorry...

complicated

there are complicated things in my mind today.
should i do everything by myself? or it's kinda test for me...
but why nobody can understand my feels??
wish i was there with you now..

FYI

i hope you who read my blog understand what i write.
because my english isnt so good. 
wish you have a good day all.


regards,
ardian

Rain

what should i tell about rain?
it could be good or bad ... all depends,
still remember that i had flood tomorrow, it's not unpredictable
but the weather is change nowdays.
when people want dry and clear weather , it turns into very dry season.
and very hot , much sun shine, and lot intense
when they want rain and humid weather , it could be heavy rain ,
mixed with thunder and wind.
until the river cant contain all water, and become flood.
i had lost some of my plans because flood in 2007, the worst i ever had.
almost 3 days, 1-1.5m of water.
and i had been having exam to pass second level in high school.

hope rain could be better now and wish a beautiful rainbow afterwards...
long time no see it.

Flood

it was not good yesterday...
my father was left , and i'm kinda home alone. 
i fell asleep and raining about 1pm
 i thought it just usual rain and will stop after some mins
but i was wrong...
someone wake me up, and i get out from bed, and water in my room already...
cold cold and colder.....
it's about 30cm inside my home, and 50cm outside
i was hungry, but there's nothing because i didnt cook this morning


luckily, there's some rice left on the jar... :D hehehe


then i have fun with friends, swimming on the dirty water.. LMAO
the flood is over after 2-3hrs, then i've to clean all home. i was wondered how can i sleep tonight.


after all clean, i went outside for something and had FUN with a friend. hehe :D
i choked for many times. lol
the good news is i can use my pc again , even no internet at this moment..

Plans

tomorrow is April,

i'm not sure i have schedule, ..

but i have plans,

some plans..usual plan likes last month (maybe)

i'm worrying about my job applications, that i sent before to 2 different places..

one was asked some money so i could get job, and the other , i still have no call / information if i 'll get interview or not, 

what should i do with $33?

hmmmmmmm

first, pay for cell bills

second, get 4gb flash disk

third, get daily needs for one month ahead

next.....hmmmm,  i can think when the days going (maybe try to earn extra money to fix my pc at home)

have evening shift today, off tomorrow..hope have a great weekend and good things to start month.

Bad Love

yeah...only sweet talk.

from first time till the end.. it's not real love. just talk,

that sweet from your lips, only in my dream could be real.

am hurt again..bad love

end of march

time is going so fast.

it's almost the end of march. a lot wish and things i want to do next month.

A MAN

I flew to high...

i had forgot the earth..

i was flying... almost to heaven

tried to reach thing that i really wanted and love.

in minute,

i lost my wings, i lost my hope..

i lost everything . and i recognize it was blinded me from reallity

and now, 

i learn how to walk by myself..

struggle with life that's not fair sometimes....mostly for a little boy likes me.

i just wont to give up, as i just grow,

i believe God know the best for me.

and i would be a man